With 2014 just around the corner (as in less than 12 hours away), I figured I would make a list of “resolutions” for the new year! Yeah!
Now I have some reservations about the idea of making New Year resolutions in January because
- I think we should reflect on our lives and have goals for the future all the time, not just when the clock strikes midnight on the 1st of the year.
- Being in school for the past 19 years, I guess I’ve been brainwashed in thinking of a “new year” as starting in September. In all those years as a student and future years as a teacher, I’m of the mindset that, “it’s only January; we still have a whole 6 months of the year left.”
- I think a lot of times people make these great resolutions with good intentions but without realizing how much they have to change their lifestyle or mindset in order to accomplish them. So as soon as they falter, they don’t have a plan B set in place or a way to get past the roadblock. They end up letting the feelings of defeat get the best of them and, soon after, they simply give up.
Not only did I include goals/resolutions for the upcoming year, I figured I would include regrets and accomplishments from the previous one. So without further ado, let’s get to it!
√ Moved to and lived in New York City
√ Completed graduate school at Columbia University
√ Kept my Crohn’s under control
√ Created and maintained a blog (except for the past 3 weeks…but with the holidays and work and completing grad school, I think I have a legitimate excuse)
√ Obtained 3 different jobs in NYC (TA at a private middle school, cashier at a small pharmacy, aide for a high school student)
√ Got engaged – I guess that’s more of an accomplishment for Tom (proposing and getting me to say yes)
- Stumbling in my spiritual life and thereby trying to control too many aspects of my life
- Constantly worrying about what others think of me
- Lack of self-worth/esteem/ambition/confidence
- Not reading enough – about the world, about math, about teaching, about God
- Watching too much YouTube (read about my addiction here) and Netflix (currently on season 5 of Gossip Girl)
- Get married! (this one’s more of an event than a goal…woot!)
- Get a teaching job (I miss being in the classroom – check me out student teaching back in 2011; I’m the one in purple, holding paper in the front. I know, I get mistaken for a student a lot.)
- Push through the premarital book we were recommended and started last month; I didn’t expect it to be this difficult! Let me give you an explanation:
You see, it’s not so much the discussions we end up having about our roles in the marriage or our expectations or whatever the exercises ask us to do or reflect on. The part I struggle with is the fact that we have to constantly reflect on our parents’ marriage, our relationships with our parents, and just our pasts in general.
These questions honestly make me question who I am because I can’t even rationalize some of my thoughts and thought processes. I end up so deflated after doing an exercise in the workbook that I honestly don’t want to do any more. But I know it’s helpful to look at myself and reflect on my past in order to set my sights on what I want in the future and in our marriage. It’s just tough when you didn’t grow up a cookie-cutter life of two healthy, married parents.
Tom has been a real trooper, coming up with ways to alter some of the exercises so that we don’t have to necessarily focus on those things that frustrate me. For example, one week we had to analyze our expected roles in our marriage. However, the book asked us to write down which of our parents were responsible for which household and/or professional responsibilities. Going through the list, I realized that after the age of 10, I did quite a few of the duties, my dad being absent and Mom’s health not so great. After the age of 15, I did most of them. Gee book, thanks for bringing that up.
Well, since Tom marches to the beat of his own drum and since my parents’ marriage ended when I was young and Mom’s MS made it difficult for her to do things, he suggested we just focus on our marriage because that’s all that really matters at this point. We ended up agreeing on most (with the exception of maybe 1 or 2) of the “roles” we plan to split or share in the book.
- Buy a house
- Find a church to attend consistently and become an active member in
- Keep up with student loans
- Survive the remaining 6 months of my current job, 4 hour daily commute and all
- With said 4 hour commute (making for 12 hours out of the house every day), find time to run or go to the gym. Come on, you can’t honestly set resolutions without including health and fitness.
- Create and use my own math/education blog (this is halfway done already…I created a blog, Chatting About Math, on edublogs.org, but feel like I have nothing to contribute since I am not in the classroom full-time yet)
- Read more – about the world, about math, about teaching, about God. This should be made easier with my daily commute.
- Write more – on this blog, on my math blog, maybe contribute to someone’s blog or something?
- Learn how to argue/debate and stick to my ideas/decisions – this may sound like a weird one, but I tend to avoid arguments or debates because I suck at them. I don’t want to create arguments just for the sake of arguing, but I would like to become better and defending my position on topics.
- Gain more self-confidence/esteem/ambition/worth and not be so dependent on what others say or think
So there you have it folks. Kind of a long list, I know, but I think there’s a good mix of small and large goals, some more easily obtained than others. What are you most proud of from 2013? What are you most looking forward to in the new year?
I hope everyone has a safe and happy New Year’s Eve as well as an amazing 2014! Cheers!